After 3 Years!

Wow!

Kung hindi dahil kay ericthespaceoutjunkie, hindi ko na uli mabibisita ang blog na to. i even forgot it existed. waahahah.

Now, what happened since I posted my Islander tsinelas??

Well, my Zero Dating for One Year Goal was successfully completed and extended till now (almost three years) T_T

I found out, pag nagzero ka sa lovelife, magzo-zoom ang career. And that was what happened. I got offered a project that sent me to Japan for training and to have a post-graduate studies in Solent University (UK). Hehehe.

I got my B- sa lakbayan.net

I organized a non-profit org that assisted two orphanage one school.

Nah, i'm not bragging, I'm just saying I've been busy.

In fact, I was sssooo busy I've been branded "superman" by three different person (one friend, one boss and one potential date).

And since I'm already bragging (though I said I'm not), hehehe, i will post here how he described me:

"Days with Superman

Who? Yes Superman. I just met him. I know it's mythical to say. But even with my own eyes and experience I just knew him. He is unbelievably extra ordinary, mysterious, and rational. For some period in my life he flew right into my face to say "hi". That he is just around. Watching. Probably waiting? Well Clark Kent is unnoticeable right? Yes at first he is just a geeky Clark Kent that my eyes never lose a wink to linger. But he proved to me that there is more to Clark Kent. That he has great power. I never knew that. And as we know power comes with great responsibility. From then I never imagine putting my picture by the side of someone like Superman. It's because he's everybody's Superman. So who am I to have a constant space in his responsibility?

I'm just an ordinary citizen like Lois Lane. But far from being more than a bird and more than a plane, I know it's not easy to be him. Out of the hundreds of people he serve, Lois Lane just want to know if Superman's kryptonite will be on hand as key. And out of all the extra ordinary traits he has, would that include an extra ordinary feeling? He was never that normal, never was perfect, never was the ideal, never expected. I don't know if I should say if there's still "to be continued" at the next page of this comic book. But who knows. Lois lane will still be Lois lane.. will be just .. yes .. here .. waving for Superman. Waiting to land again right in front of my eyes... And smile.. "

Hehehehe, cheesy noh? Since he already claimed my powers and responsibility, I was inspired... To share what I experienced.

Thus, henceforth, pipilitin kong ma-update ang blog na to, at least twice and thrice a month. n_n

“I’m HIV Positive”

Kinilabutan ako.  Parang napunta uli ako sa Lithuania ng December (-17 Degrees Celsius).  I considered the effect – Anxiety, Hatred, Depression, Suicidal Tendency.  May taning na agad ang buhay, for someone so young.  Nakakapangilid ng luha.  

Ito ang mga naramdaman ko ng malaman kong HIV+ ang isa sa mga kakilala ko.  In my line of work, required kami sa regular medical check-up.  At ang paungas-ungas na testing center na pinuntahan nya, walang konsiderasyon na brinodcast ang condition nya.  

Sana hindi ko na lang nalaman.  Hindi ko alam kung papano mag-re-react sa harap nya.  Will I act normally, like nothing is wrong? Or will I show care and concern para maramdaman nyang I’m here not to discriminate but to help?  If I choose the latter, hindi ba sya mahiya, sa akin at sa sarili nya, and make matters worst.  

Hindi naman ako natatakot mahawa sa kanya (dahil wala naman akong planong may ibang “mamagitan” sa amin).  Hindi ko lang talaga alam ang tamang pakikitungo at papano ako makakatulong.  

Side facts:
“Hindi nakukuha ang HIV
mula sa paghahalikan, pagbebeso-beso,
laway, yakapan, pag-ubo,
pawis, luha, hatsing o pagbahing,
pakikipagkamayan, paghihiraman ng mga damit,
pakikisalo sa pagkain, paghiram ng mga kubyertos,
kagat ng lamok, pagtabi sa pagtulog,
at paggamit ng kubeta."
------------Wikipedia  

With these in mind, hindi ako kinakabahan.  Lalo na kung ia-apply natin agad ang ABCDE to minimize risk of contracting any form of STD.  

A:  Abstinence.  Sa lalaking tagalog, it means “magkamay”.  Hehehe.  Dati, ang philosophy ko, kung walang babaeng available, at kung may cute guy naman na pwede, bakit ako magsosolo?  (wahahaha, but that was before ako makabili ng murang maturity sa Quiapo).  Now I believe, kung hindi ako sure na safe sya, at hindi ko talaga sya gusto, it’s better na magsolo kesa magkasakit.  

B:  Be Faithful.  Hindi na uso ang paramihan ng makakasex ngaun.  I would like to promote patagalan.  How long is your… (no, not your package) longest relationship.  It’s not the quantity of the people that you had or the flowers you traveled to, but the quality of the relationship and the sweetness of its nectar.  

C:  (Correct) Condom Use.  This one should be non-negotiable.  Pag walang supot, walang kan*ot (No ID, No Entry? Hehehe).  Sometimes, it’s always better to bring this little rubber armor of yours.  Kesa biglaan kang makipag-inuman… at malasing.. and who knows how crazy you can get when you’re drunk.  

D:  (Don’t Use) Drugs.  Zero tolerance ako dito (pati smoking).  So walang syringes na pumapasok sa katawan ko (except the vaccines that my company can think of).  And those poppers and Es...  Bahala na kayo.  

E:  Early Diagnosis and Treatment.  Maliban sa company ko na regular required medical check-up, I have my friends/sponsors na lagi akong kinukulit sa check-up.  “Pinag-aaral ka namin.  We’re investing on you, so you can’t die on us yet.”  Thoughtful friends no?  

So bottom-line, let us all be aware about this threat.  HIV and AIDS are truly here!  Hindi ito tsismis na mapapanood mo lang sa TV or mababasa sa mga blog (na katulad ng site ko).  Hindi ito kaya ng biogesic, surgery, dasal at kung ano pang treatment.  Now, it is as real as the person next to me.   

Ingat?!

Looking Back and Forward

As part of my personal New Year tradition, i'm looking back sa goal na na-iset ko last year, and will make new goals for this year.

Mabulabog ang 2009, pero all in all, may malaking growth sa career.  Zero talaga ang lovelife, either may iba na ang gusto ko or hindi ako gusto.  Ang may gusto naman sa akin; may asawa, injanong panot, o may kakulangan sa pag-iisip.

All in all, eto ang summary ng goals versus achievement ko.

1.  Dating
Nagkatotoo ang hula sa lovelife ko for the whole 2009.  Zero the whole year.  sana magkatotoo uli ang hula nya na mamayagpag naman ako this year.  wahahaha.

2.  Published Magazine
I only manage to made one (agains the goal four).  hehehe.  On draft ang 2.  Although hindi ako kasama sa feature story, i got two photos naman from different articles. wahaha.  Na-feature na rin naman ako sa isang tv show about my work at naextra sa isang international magazine, kaya ok na un.  wahahaha.

3.  Raise networth --% of last year's value.
wahahaha.  i don't wanna brag.  kaya ngiti-ngiti na lang ako d2.

4.  Campings (tour belt)
Hehehe.  Actually, mejo masama din ang napapasobra.  Four campings lang ang planned ko d2, pero it was extremely difficult to resist the allure of Coron and Caramoan Island.  Huhuhu.  Malaki din ang gastos.  But the experience is worth it.

5.  Put up a non-profit org
Well, i'm the current president of the board of trustees.  hehehe.  managed to support 2 orphanages and launch different activities.

6.  Blog!
Well, need i say more?  Hindi ko akalain na fulfilling the other dreams would leave me no time to do this one.  And since i failed on Dating, so i guess wala nang mag-iisip na me kinakarir ako kaya hindi ako nakapag-blog.  hehehe.

So if i will compute the figures, 73.2% ang achievement ko sa stated goal.  Plus, meron akong hidden goals that passed me.  wahahaha.

Now, for this 2010 i have Three Guiding Words

STRENGTHEN
1.)  Increase my weight, adding 22lbs before the year end.  hehehe.  It also includes increasing stamina.  Hhhmm.  10 laps in the pool or 3 rounds in the academy?  both tough.  T_T

2.)  Make a passive income! Kahit 3 figures lang per month.

BROADEN
1.)  Start dating!  wahahaha.  I'll expand my contacts and maintain it. Maybe go out to city 2x a month.

2.)  Expand my Interest.  Start practicing again photography and marksmanship.  Hehehe.  I have a DSLR na, sniper riffle na lang ang kulang. At kung matutuloy ang pakikipagdate ko, i'll have 3 different "shootings" to do. wahaha.
 
BRIGHTEN
1.)  Make life more colorful.  I'm scheduled to study in Solent University, UK in june.  Will do my best to make it a blast.  Maintain 4 campings a year.  Add another 2 in my Tour Belt.

2.)  Perform community service.  Hehehe.  Hindi naman nabibili ang halo, pinagtatrabahuhan. hahaha.  Nah, i'm not religious, but helping out really ligthen up my life.  continue support of one orphanage, and 3 other activities.

Now, that is my Goal this year.  Strengthen - Broaden - Brighten Two Thousand Ten!

n_n  

Ang Kapalaran ni Miko Ayon sa Manghuhula

Sometime last January, hinulaan ako ni Mrs. Alminaza,

“Dahil Water ka at Earth ang taon ngaun,
Hindi magiging maganda ang love life mo.
Laging makikialam ang career.”

At tumpak ang hula nya.  Dahil February 2009, pinadala ako sa Japan ng company ko ngaun.  At sunod-sunod na business trip for the whole six months.  Ayus ang career, it’s really taking off.  But lovelife?  Zero.  November na ngaun, at malabo naman ang mga prospect.

During lunch today - Nov 18 2009 - I asked again the Fortune Teller.

“Dahil water ka at metal next year,
Makakakita ka ng success sa hahanapin mo.
At tandaan mo tong sasabihin ko,
Apat na taon kang mamamayagpag
Basta’t maging honest ka lang at wag maging negative.”

Wahahaha!!! May ganun!  Xet!  Sobra naman akong natuwa.  Honesty and Positivity?  Well, yakang-yaka yun.

In preparation for my upcoming lovelife next year, hinihingi ko sa Universe ang Guy na kukulitin ko for four years (and hopefully for life) hehehe.  Eto ang hinahanap ko:

AYOKO ng maarte at reklamador.
GUSTO ko ng maisasama ko sa bundok, mapapahiga ko sa banig at mapapakain ng tuyo o sardinas.

AYOKO ng tamad at walang trabaho. wala akong pakialam sa sasahudin nya,
GUSTO ko lang, pag nakita kami ng ibang tao, walang mag-iisip na may money involved.

AYOKO ng astig or mas maangas sa akin.
GUSTO ko ung hindi masyadong halata, pero he knows he is the "lady" in the relationship.

AYOKO ng malaki ang katawan.
GUSTO ko yung mejo payat. yung tipo na pag-nagkasauntukan kami, hindi ako dehado. (i'm not violent, contingency plans lang, hehehe).

and finally,

AYOKO ng sobrang gwapo. hindi ako kampante.
GUSTO ko yung pwede kong maiwan sa gimikan ng walang masyadong makikipag-flirt sa kanya.

Yan na Universe.  Mukang pang X’mas Gift ang hinihingi ko, pero kahit late, mahihintay ko.  Hehehe

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Items "I'm Looking for a Guy" is a reposted entry in my Downelink account.  Photocredits to cemac from deviantart.com

On Love and Relationship

Wag nyo kong awayin sa maasim na isinusulat ko.  Eto ang epekto ng more than 17 months of Zero Dating.  I just wanna share my whole concept of love and relationship summarized eloquently by a poem:

After a While
by Veronica Shoffstall

After a while you learn
The subtle difference between
Holding a hand and chaining a soul

Dito ako madalas na nadadale, hahaha.  Marami kasing nagpapanggap na nagmamahal, but they mistaking to Love and to Own.  Maraming humihintong magmahal, dahil hindi sila minamahal.
I remember one time, i said, "I love you."
the other person said, "I'm sorry, I can't"
at sabi ko, "That is irrelevant.  ang sabi ko mahal kita, sinong may sabing dapat mahalin mo ako?"
and when that person smiled, our relationship continues till now, 7 years and counting.  But sure way it's different from everyone thinks. n_n

And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning
And company doesn't always mean security.
And you begin to learn
That kisses aren't contracts
And presents aren't promises

Isa lang ang lesson dito.  Wag mag-assume!  Maraming taong napa-praning pero friendship, companionship or libog lang pala ang gusto sa kanila ng iba.  Iba't-iba ang level ng pag-aasume.  Eto ay ang sumusunod.
Level 1 - Eto ang pinaka mababang level.  Ni-view lang ng crush mo ang profile mo, in-assume na na na me gusto rin xa sau.
Level 2 - Nginitian ka, at meron kayong small talks.  Feeling mo, misis ka na nya.
Level 3 - You did hang-out sa coffee shop or bars.  Tapos mang-aaway ka pag may nakita kang pinapa-cute-an nya.
Level 4 - Me "nangyari" na sa inyo isang beses after 3 bottles of beer.  Nag-eempake ka na kinabukasan to move in his apartment.
Level 5 - Highest level.  Eto ang the best.  Halos manhid ka na.  You are more than friends na, pero you still believe your less than lovers. 

Kaya para sa kin, it's better na maging manhid, kesa mag-assume (formula is assumption = expectation + disappointment + pahiya ka noh?).

And you begin to accept your defeats
With your head up and your eyes ahead
With the grace of an adult
Not the grief of a child

Eto naman ang anti-asim at anti-ampalaya lecture.  Sa tuwing maha-heartbroken ka, isang buntong hininga lang yan.  Na parang natalo sa jack-en-poi.  Sabi ni Paolo Coelho, you just need seven days to grieve, after nun, nag-iinarte ka na lang.  (Ang record ko is 3 days, hahaha).

And you learn
To build all your roads on today
Because tomorrow's ground is
Too uncertain for plans
And futures have a way
Of falling down in mid flight

Eto ang lesson ng living in the present.  Wag bayaang ma-trap sa past, wag bayaang ma-stuck sa future.  Today is a gift, that's why they call it present.

After a while you learn
That even sunshine burns if you get too much

Eto ang ipinayo ko sa girlfriend ng barkada ko na masyadong possesive.  Nagtaka sya kung bakit sya pinagpalit ng friend ko, despite ginawa nya ang lahat.  I told her, "yon ang problema mo, ginawa mo ang lahat.  $$$$, girlfriend ka lang.  hindi ka yaya, bodyguard, nanay, drinking buddy, labandera, kusinera or what-else ng barkada ko.  girlfriend ka, you should just be like one."

So you plant your own garden
And decorate your own soul
Instead of waiting
For someone to bring you flowers

Eto ang loving-yourself part, and my favorite.  Kanina i received a message from a guy whom i'm considering to date.  He noticed na parang dumadalang daw ang messages ko.  Nagpapaalam na raw ba ako?  O sumusuko?  Natatawa lang ako.  Hahaha.  Yes, i'm waiting for him na maka-move on sya from his previous relationship, but it doesn't mean na sa kanya na iikot ang mundo ko. 

And you learn
That you really can endure (Yes!)
That you are really strong (Sobra!)
And you really do have worth (Precious!)
And you learn and you learn (addict sa learning)
With every good bye you learn.

yan, goodbye daw.  sana you have learned something.

till next time.  n_n

To All the Boys

Hayz, I think hindi na ako kilala ng mga regular subscribers ko d2.  Nevertheless, I thank those who send me private messages encouraging me to blog more.  And contrary to what many believe, wala pa rin akong lovelife.  Hindi yon ang dahilan kung bakit ako busy.

Remember last time (no, not at bandcamp) I decided to work on the mountains?  I spent close to a year na malayo-layo sa sibilisasyon.  That’s during my Zero Dating Goal.  And sadly, that earned me to work on another project, sa dagat naman.  Since I got back from Japan last Feb, my career took off most of my time away from the web and over the sea.

Gladly, its just 2 batches of 3 months each that thankfully ended a couple of days ago.

This blog though is not about my career, but are character sketches of those cadets I trained for the past few months to whom I said farewell.  Here it goes:

Kambal sa Kieme

Parehas kayong magaling.  Academics at practical.  Pati sa boxing hirap ako sa inyo.  Pero masyado kayong low profile.  Salamat sa boxing, kahit masakit sa katawan, tumubo din yata ang muscles ko (dati parang pantal lang, ngayon manas na, hahaha).  Pero kahit parehas kaung magaling, magpakitang gilas pa rin kayo.  The old adage is sound, “out of sight, out of mind”.

Poker Face

Hindi tayo close, we both know that.  Siguro dahil awkward.  Maraming nakatingin at nakakahalata na I find you really good looking.  Hahaha.  Pasensya kung mejo iniisnab kita.  Kailangan yun.  Its my way to show fairness sa lahat ng mga kadete ko.  You got skills, and muka namang self-motivated.  Problem is you seem afraid of competition, or afraid of losing.  Don’t get it in the way of learning!  Whether it’s boxing, poker, or quiz bee.  You won’t win if you won’t try.

Stupid Monster

Hehehe, apir sa original number one member ng fans club ko.  It’s flattering na Idol mo ko.  Pero nung nalaman kong lagi mong tinitignan ang pictures nating dalawa after mag-jogging sa CCP… parang… ibang level yun.  Nagworry ako na baka mamya magsimula ka ng mag-alay ng bulaklak sa paanan ko at himas-himasin ako ng panyo.  Hahaha.  Seriously, that’s the reason why I told (and shown you) some of my bad side.  Now you know I’m just human… with strength and weaknesses just like you.  And if you find me great, you can be like that too.  Btw, anong rafe ang pinagsasabi mo?  Wahahaha.

Gullible Goblin

Hehe what can I say… sinusulat ko to ng kaharap ka.  Hehehe.  Nasabi ko na yata sau ang lahat during late night talks at tuwing mag-aaway bati tayo, hahaha.  The three months is like a hardwood for us.  It took time to alight, but burns brighter and last longer.  Thank you.  I will just remind you, wag masyadong magpaka-loner.  And YOU are what you decide to become.  Life is an endless search of self-discovery.  Wag kang matakot sa realizations, at magchange when it calls you.

Worthless Mammal

You’re the first and the only MYMAN.  Kala ko hindi mo matatagalan ang pagiging bossy, pasaway at pagiging spoiled ko.  Salamat sa pagpe-prepare ng early breakfast at midnight snack.  Sa pagpapainom ng gamut pag may sakit ako.  Sa pagremind ng everything, from sleeping schedule, drinking time-outs, financial assessment, intimate dates at kung ano-ano pang paglook-after na nagawa mo.  The three months would be unimaginably terrible without you.  At kahit hindi ko binabanggit, you know naman I appreciate it very much.  Domo Arigato Gozaimasu.

 

Sa mga hindi ko nabanggit, salamat sa mga time na nagpapatintero tau sa ulan, sa mga kalaro ko ng balikbayan, sa mga poker players (nabusog ako sa tubig), sa pusoy-dos (buti hindi permanent ang uling sa mukha), sa boxing, tennis, bowling at golf (iuuwi ko na ang wii, hehehe).  Sa mga kainuman, kakulitan, kabolahan.  Sa mga sakit sa ulo, sa mga nagregalo.

The evaluation says our sponsors are “almost satisfied”.  For me, that’s tantamount to failure.  Pero katulad nga ng sinasabi ko sa inyo, success as the world measures it is too easy.  We chose what is harder to come by.  We chose meaning in our lives.  Dahil as what our program shown, we achieve a Total and Meaningful Shipboard Experience.

I have faith in you to continue fanning the flames.  Lets raise our industry as a Whole.

Farewell Messages

i've been away for mmmoonnntthhss now.  i was not able to blog sa gitna ng laot because of my previous project. 

so, this is my first blog after that 3 month project, and its not even about that...

it's about those people, in a short time, grew up with me.  hope u'll not be offended na ipo-post ko ang farewell messages nyo sa kin.  Starting with:

"The certain end is near
and the parting time I fear
Thank you sir for us all
the experiences, imparting knowledge
and above all, the genuine relationship
we've nurtured.  Salamat Sir Miko.
This may be the end, but at the rear behind
all these, there you are, with holding your
unperishable teachings as we go ascend.
-------------Laguna Boy

"Ehem sir! emo un nasa taas, di ko kaya gumawa ng ganyan.  gusto ko lang sabihin na life is suffering because of other people.  (walang mag-eexam kung walang magpapaexam).  hehehe.  pero ok lang, pinatatag ako ng mga pagsubok.  bumagsak man o hindi, i'm still here and ready to face the next challenge.
But the most important thing is, pinakita mong hindi kami iba sau.  nagkamali ka lang siguro sa pagpili ng myman mo.  hahaha.  un lang, salamat sa mga bagong kaalaman at kasabihan.  no goodbyes sir.  till next time.
-------------Mr. C

"Veritas. Liberabit, vos"  the truth shall st you free.  thank you sir, for enligthening me how legacy defines the purpose of life.  you let me realized that the rose is not beautiful wtihout its thorns.  Thank you.  au revoir.
------------Posh

"Miko.san.
Salamat dahl nakilala kita sa maikling panahon even to you rafe me sometimes.  i really appreciate.  Thank you so much for everything.
Dapat makikita pa tayo" Ok!!!
-------------Stupid Monster

It's not one great deed that proves your importance...
It's the little good things that you impart day by day that counts.
3 months might be short, but ur impact will last long
-------------Wii Legend

and finally, but not the least:

"I won't say goodbye, i won't say i will miss you, all i can say is thank you.  for 3 months nagkasama tayo, nagkakwentuhan, nagkatabi sa pagtulog, kasama sa mga gimiks lalo na sa mga first experience ko together with you na never in my life ko malilimutan, and i know its not the end at marami pa tayo pagsasamahan.  i will not be around you for awhile but our hearts will be connected forever.  Thank you.
-------------Gullible Goblin

 

yan na lang.  hahaha.  ung farewell ko sa kanila on my next blog post.